Well... I cannot deny that this past week has been very difficult on me. Due to my foot injury, my workouts have not been as good as I hope and I feel that sitting all the time to rest it makes me lazy and undeserving of fulfilling my macros all the time. YUP.. here we go again with that thought! How I ever began thinking "I need to earn the food I eat" really just SUCKS! It's not logical and I know that, but yet again "ED" is not always logical but I listen. I restricted a few times with meals and I have been telling my team so do not think I am doing this in secret. My team is aware of the struggles and I have had success on getting back on track to make up my restrictions. However, this doesn't solve the problem about the constant needing to feel worthy of the food I eat. My body is constantly working hard to fix the damage I have caused. My metabolism is still fixing itself... my muscles are restoring..my hormones are trying to normalize..my hair is growing back, my skin and nails are getting stronger.. my heart beats and every pump requires calories. I understand this.. and yet I still have the negative thoughts on the side that are telling me I am unworthy of eating all my meal plan. Even if a workout is not as strong or I can't do as heavy of weights because of an injury, I still was active and I need energy..I need food. Some days I can do this, others.. well it's a struggle.
BUT I WILL KEEP FIGHTING!
I will try and complete my macros. I will fight and know that I am worth more than the number on a scale..the number of calories I burn in a day... I am more than a number. I am Erin and I am worthy.
BUT I WILL KEEP FIGHTING!
I will try and complete my macros. I will fight and know that I am worth more than the number on a scale..the number of calories I burn in a day... I am more than a number. I am Erin and I am worthy.